A memoir by Francisco B. Sousa

A body in pain.
A life put on hold.
A way back.

For almost ten years, chronic back pain consumed my life. This is the story of my long search for solutions, and eventual wholesale recovery.

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About the book

Not a miracle cure.
A long search for a life again.

In 64 concise pages, The Lost Decade takes you inside my everyday life as a 26- to 34-year-old chronic back pain sufferer.

Experience the highs and lows of my journey through short-lived improvements, false starts, stops, and almost losing all hope.

Chronic pain did not destroy my life in one dramatic moment. It narrowed it, decision by decision, until ordinary things — sitting, travelling, training, even making plans — felt dangerous.

This is the story of how I moved from strength and confidence into injury, fear and withdrawal; how surgery briefly seemed like an exit; and how recovery eventually emerged through a combination of education, graded exposure, sleep, strength, movement and a changed relationship with pain.

It is a personal account, not a prescription. Its purpose is to offer honesty, perspective and hope to people whose worlds have grown small.

“That’s the thing about chronic pain: it doesn’t destroy you all at once. It chips away at you in small defeats.”
— The Lost Decade

My story

Years spent looking for the one thing that would fix everything.

I went from powerlifting and five-hour walking tours to organising my days around avoiding discomfort. I underwent a partial laminectomy and discectomy, recovered, relapsed on a ski trip, consulted specialist after specialist, and nearly submitted to spinal fusion.

The turning point was not a single treatment. It was learning to stop treating my body as fragile, to rebuild capacity patiently, and to re-enter the life I had been avoiding.

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Meet the Author

Hi, I'm Francisco.

In my mid-twenties, a herniated L5-S1 disc and the years that followed completely changed my life.

For almost a decade, I searched for a solution—through surgery, physiotherapy, medications, books, and countless recovery protocols.

Eventually I found one.

The Lost Decade is the story of that search.

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Free Companion Guide

Learn what finally helped me recover after eight years of chronic back pain.

Everything I wish I'd known eight years earlier.

I spent years trying physiotherapy, surgery, medications, and countless recovery protocols before I finally began making lasting progress.

In this free Companion Guide you'll discover:

  • The mindset shifts that changed my recovery
  • The practical habits that finally worked for me
  • A visual timeline of my entire journey—from injury to getting my life back

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